I wish the world was run by love and absolutely nothing more. So I laid down all my pain and got rid of my hate. I've become a real believer in not defining every single thing. Seems like everytime you think you've figured out what something is, it just becomes something else.
 I guess I never loved you quite as well as the way you loved me. I guess I'll never really be able to tell you how sorry I am You left me before I had a chance to say goodbye, buyt that's the way life usually is - it just passes you by. You can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back, so I'll just be thankful for the times I had with you. 
"When I fell to the floor tonight, I was so scared, I was so terrified. Then I saw you and I promise myself that if I could just get up, I'd walk over to you. I'd tell you how much I need you and how much I want you and how nothing else matters." When you do everything you can, sometimes more than you thought you could, you've got to walk away knowing you fought the good fight. 
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone. When you're sure you've had enough of this life, hang on. Don't let yourself go cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes. I wait for the days when I will forget who you are. When the taste of your name sounds old and worn. I wait for the days when I won't remember why I needed you so bad. 
I'm about to see a million things I thought I'd never see before, and I'm about to do all of the things I dreamed of, and I don't even miss you at all. I think I thought so much about losing you that I never really had you. You spend so much time. You spend so much time when you think you've got all the time in the world. 
"Anything for you" is what you told me the day I sat there with you. So I know nothing lasts forever, when will we realize it's gone? "Anything for you" is what you told me the day I sat there with you. Do we understand that words were not enough? You said to me that this would last forever. I want to thank you. Thank you for always listening to me when I just needed to vent. Thank you for understand what I needed, for being my best friend. And for not giving up on me when everyone else had. 
Sometimes I sleep and sometimes it's not for days. The people I meet always go their seperate ways. Sometimes you tell the day by the bottle that you drink and sometimes when you're alone, all you do is think. Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But we never forget them. It's those memories that give us the strength to go on. 
Empty fields move me so much more than rooms filled up with friends. The way the trees look dead reminds me that there's more to life than living. Maybe giving up isn't bad.. Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it. 
Want to know why I love you? It's cause you loved me, when I didn't love myself. It's cause you held up my beauty for me to see, it's cause you cared for me unconditionally. It's cause the first time in my life, I didn't have to wrok so hard at being happy.
Relax, there is an answer to the darkest times. It's clear we don't understand but the last thing on my mind is to leave you. I believe that we're in this together 
Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart. When I turned the page, the corner bent into a perfect dog ear, as if the words knew I'd need them again. But at that time, I couldn't see it. 
I've always liked the time before dawn. 'Cause there's no one around to remind me who I'm supposed to be. So it's easier to remember who I am. I wanted to write you one perfect song to make you cry in your sleep. Kinda like a soundtrack for your dreams, to let you know I'm watching and making sure it turns out alright. I guess I wanted to make you feel something. I wanted to make you feel everything. 
The rain seems to trigger something inside of me; a memory that I thought I'd lost forever. A night filled with freedom, long, long age. When I danced the night away in the streets and nobody bothered telling me to come inside. I believe that was the last night I ever truly felt alive. "I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think
it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude
of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a
person." 
And you wonder why so many young children are ending up on the streets. It's because they figure the streets are more peaceful than the yelling and screaming in their homes. No matter what is said between us, I'm still always going to be here for you, even if you don't realize it. I will stick around for you, I'll be here when ever you need to talk, if things ever go wrong. I will make up excuses for you, for why you don't get in touch, for why you just don't seem to care. But just don't tell me how good your life is, and how you think things will work out for me too. I don't want your pity. I hate your pity. 
Sometimes there's nothing to say. Sometimes silence expresses more than words. Picking up the phone, dialing a number, it can do more damage than good. But humans are afflicted with this obsessive desire to talk things to death so we make things worse by trying to make things better. I think it happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want. And then you realize the people you've known forever don't see the things the way you do. So, you keep the wonderful memories but you'll find yourself moving on. 
That night we talked; we talked about life, about our times together. Maybe we aren't the same two kids we once were, but some things never change. Some things last, and even though I didn't know what was going to happen to us or where we were going, I just knew I couldn't let you out of my life. I'm young. I live in a house that my father owns and I sleep in a bed that my father bought. Nothing is mine except my heart and my fears and my growing knowledge that not every road is going to lead home anymore. 
He showed me that you can find good in anybody if you just give them a chance, benefit of the doubt. Sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they surprise you, but you never really get to know them until you listen to what's in their heart. I guess that it's typical to cling to memories you'll never get back again and to sort through old photographs of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know. 
So, I just stopped everything - thought about all the things weighing me down. Then I threw out old boxes, emptied my pockets of regrets and love letters, pictures and lockets. And all I have now is the truth that I've found that life has a way of just turning around. Your voice sets off such a strange feeling. I start to miss you. Even though you're right there, I can't reach out and touch you. 
I don't have the heart to hurt you. It's the last thing I wanna do. But I don't have the heart to love you, not the way you want me to. Is anybody satisfied with who they really are? You could be the moon and still be jealous of the stars. You've got to learn to swim if you can't walk upon the sea. So I'm learning to live with me. 
You and I are going to be okay, you know that, right? We may not be as happy as you always dreamed. We would be, but for the first time, let's just allow oursleves to be whatever it is we are. And that'll be better, okay? I think it'll be better. Sometimes apologies don't mean a thing. Like four in the morning when you're in bed sleeping. You don't need a phone conversation to wake you up, to bring you down. Cause when it's over, we both know. 
I give thanks to everyone whoever loved you. I give thanks to everyone who you've ever loved. I give thanks to the millions of moments that made you who you are.
You can't go back, only remember. Remember how we used to be, how our relationships used to be, how we used to love each other. And how the things we both said replay in my mind over and over again. There's nothing more I can do now but move on.
I'll just speak these two next lines all soft and slow so you can let them sink in: The difference between us, my friends, I can see it in your eyes: you're glad that you're not dead yet and I'm just happy to be alive. It was quiet in the car so it made me think of you. So I turned on the radio and my favorite song was playing but it made me think of you. So I turned it off and looked out the windows and watched it rain and it made me think of you. The truth is, sometimes I miss you so bad it hurts. 
We're all looking for a peaceful and safe place. But maybe there is no such place. But we keep going no matter what's waiting for us down the road. We don't stop living. Let's be happy with what we have. Enjoy the beauty in these days. Sometimes we'll laugh. Sometimes we'll scream. No one said caring would be easy. 
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